When I started this, all I could muster was a grocery style list of reasons of why I write, which made me realise that; a) I may actually not be a very good writer at all and b) I may be studying the entirely wrong thing. This was less than encouraging. Actually that is a bit of an understatement, it was soul destroying. I was struggling with writing this to the point where I expressed my doubts with a friend and he said "use your magic." He was right, I do use magic, everyday. Words are magical. Why should it matter if it doesn't make sense or if it's just line after line of sentences that have nothing to do with each other because each word in itself has the ability to create something through magic; light, darkness, pain, sorrow, love, happiness, laughter and tears. So here's my grocery style list of magic, that I hope evokes something, because that's why I write, to evoke the beautiful things in life.
I write for my dad because I'm not sure how but I know wherever he is, he can read it and he's proud.
I write for my mom because I hope to show her that I appreciate everything she does for me.
I write for my friends because I'm often unable to express how much they mean to me aloud.
I write because I'm anxious.
I write because I'm nostalgic.
I write because I'm insecure.
I write because I'm hopeful.
I write because I'm indecisive.
I write because I'm timid.
I write so that the pressure that is perpetually building up in my brain can be released.
I write because I'm happy and I don't want to forget the feeling or the person that made me feel that way.
I write because sometimes I feel inadequate but I manage to persuade myself otherwise with my writing.
I write because sometimes words are the only things worth believing in.
I write because I'm a doomed dreamer that wants to save everybody and show the world she was given, that they're wrong.
I write because the people in my head need a voice to.
I write because I can't sleep.
I write because it's like opening my window shade and I am letting some light in.
I write because it makes things seem conquerable.
I write because how else do you keep going when something horrible happens
I write because I'm scared to get close.
I write because I hate being alone.
I write because I long for the feeling to not feel at all.
I write because I'm living the dream , one mistake at a time.
I write because a page is the only place that I can be myself.
I write because every word is a tidbit of my soul splashed onto a page.
Some days are magic and I can do anything and that's why I write. The other days I just have to wait, and hope it comes back.